Spent the entire day yesterday packing, and today moving.  Omg, I couldn't believe it, there were so much garbage in this house.  We spent $200+ for getting rid of them and another $350+ for moving.  Oh boy, tomorrow is the actually day moving in to the condo, I wonder how much more I would have to spend.  After I move in, I'll buy couple items:
-a small side table
-small vaccuum
-couple foldable chairs
-couple cushions for the sofa
-another closet

Can't think of anything else.  I hope I won't have to move again in the next 5-10 years.  I'm very comfortable with the new place and I can see myself not wanting to leave it for anywhere else   Just one more day, less than 24 hours and I'm done.  I'm finally out of downtown and won't come back to live again, never ever!  Now, all I hope is that when I'm all settled in the new place, I could really concentrate in studies for my certification, I've been dragging on for way too long, can't be lazy anymore.  Now that I've moved/moving to uptown, travel time will be longer, probably around 1-1.5 hrs, but I still think it's worth it

Ever since I came back from HK, I've been waking up at 4am, 5am.....things are getting better, today I woke up at 6:15am .  Hopefully, things get back to normal soon.  I've been feeling very lazy lately.  Don't feel like doing anything. I know I'm supposed to be studying for my Microsoft certifications, but I'm still in ch 3...well, barely read through ch 2, haven't done any practice, haven't done anything for Maxx/Karman.  I haven't done anything at all, and worst of all, I'll be moving in 2 weeks, which means I have to do lots of packing and cleaning ....I don't want to do anything...NO!!....I want to party I want to throw a big party, but that's almost impossible, none of my friends are free, they are so busy with their work/family .  Today I woke up around 5ish am, stayed in bed for a bit, not cuz I was tired or anything, but cuz I wasn't motivated to do anything.  I don't feel like waking up and going to work, its kinda not making sense to me.  I feel so lost, I know what I need to do, yet I don't feel like doing them .  I feel like talking to people and not talking to people at the same time.  Dont really know what I want to do.  According to my friend, I should be happy since things are gradually happening and to the way I wanted to, but for some reason, I am not. I feel like there's more to my list to be accomplished.  Maybe I should take things slowly and do them one at a time, that way I can keep myself in perspective.

Yesterday, I had a ....kind of serious chat with a coworker (Mr. A).  I keep saying that I need to go back to school, cuz I feel like I don't know enough.  But Mr. A insisted that I should have more confidence on myself, as I know more that I am awared of.  He said that as a female developer, I have more advantage over males.  Do I?? Maybe!  I've just forwarded couple emails to Ryerson enquiring about admission procedures.  I hope they get back to me soon, so that I have in mind what to expect.  For the meantime, I have to put more time onto my MS Cert study.  Can't delay it anymore, cuz I know that I'm wasting my time.  Can't afford to waste my time anymore.

1.5hrs and I'm out of the office....I'm super tired.  I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn't get back to sleep.  My mind was full of.....mix of thoughts, anger, frustration etc.  I guest I'm still suffering of jetlag...going to bed quite early and waking up even earlier.  Yesterday was better, cuz I was able to sleep from 3pm till 8am .  I wonder when is this gonna end.  I didn't have this issue when I arrived to Shanghai....I guess I was too excited then.

How was my trip?  It was just OK! with the except of Bali Island, which was a total paradise. White beaches, palm trees, beautiful sunsets etc, it was the best!  Shanghai was just ok.  Its just a financial city with tall buildings, nothing special....pretty much another HK.  Rich people are super rich and poor people are very poor.  Due to the vast amount of vehicles, the pollution there is super bad.  I could barely breath.  Food was great...something worth to mention.  Its got the best food among all the places I've visited this trip.  Its got so many different type of food, different from what I'm used to have in Toronto.  We stayed in Pudong, which is the financial part of Shanghai.  Puxi is the antigue Shanghai, where all the antigue historic buildings are.  Pudong(east) and Puxi(west) are separated by a river.  Shopping in Shanghai wasn't that great.  There are lots of imitations brands.  Conclusion: I don't think its worth a second visit.

Hong Kong was much better, although they have the same pollution.  Shopping in HK was fun.  Clothing are very cheap(non-branded) but I like their styles.  We pay for the style, not the quality, cuz the quality of their clothing are very bad, I have to admit.  I stayed in HK for 5.5 days, and that's where I had my birthday party...well, sort of .  On the day of my arrival, we went to an outdoor bbq place.  HK is so convenient, you dont have to plan for a bbq, u can just go anytime u feel like, its a all u can eat place .  The bad thing about HK is all the Typhoon.  We planned to head to Macau on Sep 24, but there was a Typhoon on the 23rd, ruined my plans...we ended up shopping.

I left to GuangZhou on the 27th.  Panyu is way better than I expected, with the exception of their toilets...well, they dont have toilets .  The roads are very clean.  The food was ok, ppl were ok too.  Nothing special.

If I were to rate my trip, I'll give it a 6/10.  Why?  It was exhausting...I spent most of the time on the plane
flying from Toronto->HK->Shanghai->Bali->Shanghai->HK->Toronto.  So exhausting!!!  I got back on Friday Oct 3.  Custom was pretty easy, not much questioning, but baggage claimed took about an hr.  We ended up leaving the airport around 9ish. Slept the entire day on Sunday from 3pm to Monday 8am...that was about 16hrs straight...skipped lunch and dinner.  Yesterday was bad.  I went to bed at 11pm and woke up this morning at 4am.  I struggled to stay up till 11pm, but I guess it didn't help.  I still don't understand y I couldn't get back to sleep.  I'm a sleeping beauty, I love to sleep and can sleep everywhere.  Donno what happened.  So many things were on my mind. The wedding, moving, family, school, work etc.  That person's name was poping up in my mind out of a sudden.  Questions unanswered, anxious to find out the truth but at the same time anger, blames, regrets...lots of overwhelming thoughts.  Calming sensations comes back again, no more anger, everything's over.  Logic thoughts come into my mind.  Everything's over.  Nothing to worry about.  No more questions.  Dont want to find out the answers....they won't change the anything. No more regrets.  Even if I get to see that person again, I don't think I'll ask any questions.  Sometimes I'm worried that I can't control myself and start thinking again and again.  Women are like that, no matter how logical they are, they tend to think about lots of "if", I guess that's where the logic comes from....what if this happens...what if that happens....what if I didn't do that? LOL...that's nature!  Sometimes I can be very realistic, I know that even I have all those questions answered, they won't change a single thing, or it might make the situation worst.  Sometimes not knowing the truth might be a better way to go.  Sometimes, no matter how hard u try to find the truth, u'll just not get it, cuz ppl don't tell truth....somethings the truth can chage things dramatically, and we dont want that to happen.  Better or worst, let it be as it is, let things happen naturally.  This is the thought that can calm and lead me to where I am now.  Searching for the truth is just so tough....dont think its worth it.  I can just hope that that person won't show up again in my life....never ever again.  Let the past be the past!  Enjoy the present and look forward to the future...better or worst.