On July 25th, 2009 12:00pm, I had a car accident on DVP south of Steeles Ave.  My car is confirmed as not recoverable; total lost!  I can't recall what happened nor able to remember anything prior to that.  The last thing I remember was paramedics/police asking for my name and age; the next thing, I was admitted to ER....till the doctor came and checked my spinal cord and hands and feet and head.  They did a CT scan on me and everything seems normal, just couple bruises around my entire body.  I had a big impact to my left head therefore my right left is not as natural as before, but according to the doc, this is just temporary.  Well, lets really hope this is temp, otherwise I donno what to do.  The doc said I was very dehydrated from the food poisoning and most probably that's the main cause of the lost of conciousness which in turn caused the accident.  I was sooooo lucky because I didn't hit anybody nor anyone was hurt in that accident; except for myself of course.  What an experience!, well, can I still call that an experience but without experiencing it?  I can't remember anything and everytime I struggle to remember, my brain seems like cracking appart and I start to get throbing pain.  I've been on advil these couple days for the headaches.  The muscle pain are tolerable.  I just hope this gets over asap;  I missed my normal life; looking forward to work, to colleagues, friends, life; now, with pain, I'm not looking forward to anything but rest.  I feel pity for myself.  But I have to say, me coming out alive, sound and safe, its a miracle.  The crash was big and a total mess and I was pretty pretty lucky to come out alive and not badly hurt or wounded.  When I first woke up on ER, I lost my vocabulary, Chinese and English, but it came back pretty quick.  This was a miracle, really!  God, thank you again for giving me another chance.  I could have gone in a matter of seconds, but I'm still here, writing on my blog.  My brain is not functioning at 100% of normal pace, but its pretty good considering its only 3-4 days after the impact.  I got 2 huge bruises on the left side of my head.  They hurt so much that I can't sleep on that side.  It wakes me up every time I turn to that side.  I have a huge bruise on my left arm as well.  Some bruises near both knees and right ankle and right foot.  I think its this bruise on my right leg that's preventing me from walking properly.  Life is so fragile, you never know what's gonna happen next; can't never be prepared.  Miracles do happen, and God made it happen on me so many times.  How can I not love him? Enjoy life to the fullest, because you never know what's gonna happen on the next second of your life; therefore, appreciate it, your love ones, your job, your boss, your colleagues, friends, and even your enemies.  Life is too short, life it to the fullest, as if its your last!

Today, I attended to Silverlight on Silver Screen.  It was all about Silverlight 3.0 coming out July 2009.  I've played with Silverlight 1.0 and thought it was great.  Now that I've seen 3.0 in action, I think its fabulous.  Just can't wait to create my own apps using Silverlight 3.0.  There are so many things on my list that I want to do but never have the time to do them.  I tried to commit, then got distracted, or too busy at work, or too much school work or simply forgot about them.  I have to start prioritizing my task list.  Its just that developing for fun is never on my priority list.  I just hope that after on my recovery period after the surgery, I'll have some time to start developing for fun.  I can't believe people think programming is a boring job, I personally think its the best career ever.  Its limitless the things you can do.  Programming is so much fun.  It triggers your brain to use more power, enforces more logical thinking.

Today's event lasted for 3+ hours, from 9 am - 12is pm.  I had to wake up at 6:30am in order to arrive downtown at 8:30am.  Oh man, I haven't been up so early in ages, but it kinda feel good.  Despite the short sleep I had last night and a 1.5 hours of yoga, I was able to make without difficulties.  Talking about yoga, I've skipped it since school started.  Omg, last session was sooooo hard on me.  My legs still hurt.  I need to be more active as of now on.  I'm actually considering practicing on Saturday as well, since I've stopped playing badminton, not because I don't like, but because I don't have a car.....life w/o a car really sucks, but well, its good to my pocket.  I really need to save up, in case my sister is coming to study; I'll need to have enough savings to conver her studies.  I really hope she can come asap.

Yesterday, I received an email from my team lead asking us for our "Growth Plan Objective".  I have so many things I want to do, but I know I need to focus in one direction in order to advance; I need to choose the one that best interested me and what I do best at....but I think I do good at everything, as long as I have the interest.  So it was a hard topic.  Finally, out of the many things I want to do, I picked leading.  But I know in order to be a successful leader, I need to have good communication, therefore I'll focus more on my communication skills.  I donno if I really have good leading skills, I might not, but my friends say I do.  I've taken lots of personalities quizes and they all say that I belong to the leaders group; not followers.  I wonder if that's true.  Certainty, I have alot of comments, and ideas, but that's not enough to be a good leader.  George Ambler's blog has interesting posts about leadership, very interesting articles for your spare time.

“Efficiency is doing better what is already being done.”
-- Peter Drucker

“Knowledge is the theoretical paradigm, the what to do and why. Skill is the how to do. And desire is the motivation, the want to do. In order to make something a habit in our lives, we have to have all three.”
-- Stephen Covey; The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime."

                                          -- Chinese Philosopher, Lao-Tzu

Today's was the 1st team doing our annual company bbq event.  The food was all gone when I ran downstairs.  We usually get a page before the event starts, but this time, they didn't even bother in paging us, so we were waiting and waiting upstairs.  By the time we know, the food was all gone.  We ended up going to Little India for lunch.  I was looking forward to this bbq, but...what a disappointment.  Our interactive bbq was a great success last year, hehe as always, I'm very proud of my team.  This year, they changed the plan a bit.  Instead of having dept teamed up, they randomly picked team members and judges.  My team is doing bbq on Aug 24, but I'm away then.  Hope they can do a great job.

I just finished upgrading to BlogEngine.net 1.5 but it seems that email part still isn't working.  I would need to dig into their code to figure out what's wrong with it.  When I updated the settings and tested the connection, everything seems fine but it doesn't work when I put it to work.  I wanted to change to another theme, I actually did, but reverted it back to Girl Geek, donno why.  I think its the pink that's really attracting me.  Its already 9:20pm and I'm still at work.  Poor J, he'll have to drive all the way from Newmarket to downtown to pick me up.  I kinda feel guilty.  Maybe I should treat him to dinner, but how?  I only have $20 with me LOL...I think I can afford 2candine big mac LOL.  The poor little guy must be exhausted.  The ac at home is not working and he's been running up and down and getting people in to fix it and its still not working properly.  Thanks God it hasn't been hot these couple days, otherwise, I donno how I would survive.  J's been very good lately.  I've been very busy with exams and assignments, he's been helping out alot.  He's been doing some house chores, groceries and taking care of my dinners and breakfasts.  I think I should thank him for his hard work.  His job is very tiring and after that he's still needs to take care of my meals, I feel like a little girl being taken care by her dad.