Today, I went shopping again. I know, I've spent sooo much, and still can't stop, but I promise not to buy hoodies again; at least in 2010. Omg, I got a total of 10 hoodies; not counting the ones that I don't wear anymore. I think that's alot; so no more hoodies for me! And I really gotta stop buying, no matter what.
Just now, I was told to take the car for oil change on Thursday; I'm kinda nervous cuz I haven't driven for over 4 months; not sure if I am able to drive on the highway anymore; after the accident, I kinda take driving really seriously. I still can't remember what exactly happened then, I think that's why I'm scared of hitting the road. What exactly caused it? I can't remember anything at all. Its a dark spot on me, and I really want to know. Until then, I'll have to fight my fear; cuz I love cars, and can't stop driving, no matter what. I think my passion for driving way superseede my fear. I will drive really carefully from now on.
Its almost 1am, but I still can't fall asleep. I'm so awake. Usually this is the time that actually makes me think about the past year and think about what I've gained/lost, what I've done right, and not too right. Two more days till 2010, and thinking back on 2009, I'm pretty satisfy with it. I've achieve what I most wanted; acknoledgement at work. It is so far my greatest accomplishment. I think this already made 2009 really worth it and meaningful. My car accident was my wrong; I should not hit the road if I feel ill. That can cause harm to myself and others. I should be more considerate. This accident taught me so many things. It taught me that life can be taken away spontaneously; you won't even have the time to think what to do with what you own/owe; not love/hate. Nothing matters anymore, cuz once its gone, its gone forever. No second chance. I'm very very thankful to God that gave me a second chance; I should say third chance. He's been so so nice to me already; I can't ask for anything else. I need to appreciate him, his love and his words. Yes, life is so precious and yet short, so I should live it if it was my last day; cuz you never know what's going to happen next minute. Appreciate what you have and those around you. Please don't hate; just love! Love everyone, your kin, partner, colleagues, friends, neighbours, strangers, even enemies. Hatre won't take you anywhere. Just love love love! It'll make your life more enjoyable. Learning to appreciate. Donot expect others to do what you want them to do, because they are not you; they don't know what you want. They'll just do what they think its right. If you really want them to do your way, ask it nicely; people would appreciate it more. I'm far from perfect, but I'm learning. By doing so, I make my life and the life of people around me easier and more comfortable. I've always have had low EQ. My mood shift way more than the market. I do try to change that and control my temper a bit more. I know I can't do it all at once, but I'm trying bit by bit.
2009 has been a year of growth for me. I've mature a bit more. I've learned that attitude its really the most important thing in life. You can have ten degrees and a bad attitude, that'll take you nowhere. Interpersonal skills are so important. Treat others the way you want to be treated. That's what I always do. I do everything, say everything from my heart. Help others whenever I can, regardless whether they appreciate or not. Give advices from my heart; share my experiences. Share my knowledge. Share my thoughts. Share my joy and my sadness. Never try to be better than others, because we are unique and we are good at different things. Always learn, love and share.
March 2009, I was encouraged to go back to school to get my degree. I was so touched for your words, Pankaj and Mike, thank you guys. These people are so smart and talented but they never acted they were better than me. Instead, they strongly encouraged me to go for what I longed for. I appreciate so much their encouragement, because without them, I've never know this is possible. Thank you.
July 2009, I had a car accident. It totally changed my attitude towards life. It was a big lesson God gave me. Thank you my Lord.
Aug 2000, I had my first surgery. Never know Jack could be so caring till then. Thanks for bearing my bad temper and moody emotions.
Dec 2009, I had my second surgery, well, actually left off of my first surgery. Thanks to Jacob for all the positive words; they helped me so much. Thank you. Thanks to all my friends who've been there for me. Thanks to Simon, Libra, Fiona and Selina for being there, watching me sleep; it wasn't fun, just some snoring :) Thank you guys. Special thanks to Fiona for those delicious soups. Love them! Thanks Jack again for tolerating me; I know I was very very annoying and hard to deal with, specially after weeks of being alone at home, I tend to get a bit frustrated. Thanks for your effort to make me feel comfortable and my days enjoyable.
2010 would be a year of plans and hopes. I can see my future and my career and I'm striking hard towards my goal. Very excited and looking forward to it; I hope you all feel the same. Happy 2010!