When I first attended a bilingual school back in Honduras and heard the teacher said "a piece of cake", I didn't really know the meaning behind it; I was actually thinking a real piece of cake...LOL...but I was asking myself what does "a piece of cake" has to do with the context he was into? That's when I threw him the question, what do you mean by "a piece of cake"? haha, see, there's always a story behind everything.

Long before my surgery, I did lots of research about the pre and post of the surgery, what to and not to do, what to expect, risks, recovery etc etc, then I was telling myself, ah, this is a piece of cake, they'll just knock you off and once you wake up, everything is finished and done, and you stay in the hospital for 2 days, then recovery at home for 6 weeks, and boom, that's it, and over and ready to be normal again.  I was thinking, yeah, 6 weeks with your mouth shut shouldn't be an issue, time flies, it's gonna be just 1.5 months, it'll pass by without me noticing.....blah blah blah...when I said that to myself back then, I was very positive and very very brave.  Now, only 3 weeks have passed by, and time passes by soooo slowly.  What I thought would be a piece of cake isn't really a piece of cake.  Although I've read couple blogs of people undergone the surgery and how they don't regret doing it, better yet, they state it was the best decision they've done in their lives, I don't feel it that way...or at least not yet.  This recovery period has been very exhausting for me.  First because I never feel like eating anything.  I'm a very picky eater, and refuse to eat things that I don't like, like boost, ensure, blended milkshakes etc etc. All I've been surviving on is mashed potatoes, frozen meatloaf, canned corned-beef, chicken broth, home made veggie soups.  I'm not into sweet stuff; I've had only 3 scoops of ice cream since I was back to home from the hospital.  I know I'm not taking in enough calories, but I don't know what to do.  I know my blood pressure is getting low, and lips are turning so white and I get dizziness once in a while, but I still don't know what to do.  I try my best to eat more the stuff I like, but that doesn't seem to be enough.  I also know I should be eating more often, but once I've brushed my teeth and put the bands on, I stay awake from food till next time I'm really hungry.  I know I'm not supposed to be doing that :(

Life is like that.  Listen/watching people going over difficult times, we tend to think its a piece of cake and not seeing/feeling the difficulty till we actually experience it.  Yes, we need to experience it to understand exactly how  difficult the situation really is, without the experience, we would never truely understand those people going through it.  The web is a public spot and you can see people posting content of others without their consent.  For instance, Gillian's incident.  When it first happened, I hear people commenting on how she should have just faced it and give an explanation to the public.  It is really easy to say, but it's extremely hard to do.  We witness people going through hard times, but yet we don't know exactly how hard that time is.  We can vision, imagine, but again, we are not them, we can't experience their pain until we actually go through it ourselves.  So, what might seem a piece of cake for us, might not actually be a piece of cake at all!

Yesterday was my first day back to work.  Everything was pretty ok except that I get tired pretty quickly....and my mind was pretty slow....but over all ok.  All my colleagues are soooo nice, considerate and caring, they are the best! Thank you! J was very good too!  He dropped me off at work....so nice of him.  He's been very nice lately.  He went shopping with me at Farview Mall on monday and paid for all my stuff cuz he knows I was quite upset and bored at home, and he wanted to cheer me up....you know, the only thing that most likely can cheer a girl up is by shopping lor....sometimes it takes something like this(surgery/sickness) to realize how much someone cares for you.  I'm glad I'm finally back to work and things are getting back to normal, hopefully in 4 more weeks,...3.5 more weeks till my bands are off and I can have some real food yay!

People here are pretty busy and I kinda feel guilty for not being able to help.  Senior is on vacation and I have nothing assigned prior my sick leave, therefore leaving me here with nothing much to do.

I finally got my GTI, yay! It's absolutely amazing! It's gorgeous!  Love that car. 

Name: Angel

DOB: Aug 24, 2009

Details: 2009 white GTI 200hp 2.0T w/ Luxury Sport Ppackage, tinted windows, 18" Alloy Wheels Package

My car is the only happy thing in the last 2.5 weeks....and it's the only thing that had actually cheered me up.  Its my angel!

Lately, I've been having this small thought.  I used to think that fate is already stated when you are borned; carved in stone.  Now I kinda realize that's not true.  We create our own path.  Its just a matter of decision making.  Every decision you make, changes your path which in turn, changes your fate.  The problem is, we as human beings (most, not all) don't like changes.  We are used to our environment as it is and feel comfortable and don't want to make any changes.  This is kinda of sad, because I believe that we need to be innovative in order to advance.  The world is always changing therefore we should be adaptive and change accordingly.  Luck is a bonus.  It's a shortcut.  Is good to have, yet equally good to not have, as it makes you work harder to attain your goal.

After all the things I've gone through, I still consider myself very very lucky.  Yes, I've gone through alot, at the same time, all these incidents in my life changed my perspective towards life.  It helped me grow, mature, appreciate life, appreciate my friends, appreciate my love ones and just learn that nothing is for granted in life.  I am very blessed to have gone thru all that, because God gave me all those challenges to transform me into the Vicky you know today.  I'm far from perfect.  I have very bad temper, and  very low EQ but I still feel blessed because I could be worst than this. I don't have too many friends, but just couple that are always there when I need them.  That's a huge blessing.  I got parents and siblings that love and care for me.  I got J, who's not romantic nor know the best way to make me happy or entertain me, but he's a sincere, loving and caring when I need him.  I got a job of my dream.  Yes, I love my job. I love this company and love my colleagues, they are so caring, encouraging and considerate.  What else can I ask, aside from a raise? LOL....it takes so much to find a job that you like and are willing to do it for the next 5, 10, 20 years.  I own a condominium, it's not the highest class, but it's decent enough.  I got the car that I really, in the way I wanted it (white with tinted windows).  I'm back to school, which is a super bonus.  Never thought I would make it back to school after being working ft for over 3 years.  Counting my bad experiences vs my blessings, oh boy, I can see my blessings always always outrun the bad things.  Life is like that.  We tend to forget about our blessings and only remember the bad experiences.  In fact, when something bad happens, the only thing we know is complain.  We have to know life is a circle.  We need to have bad moments in order to appreciate and enjoy happy ones.  Remember, when you are in a bad, upset situation, just remember, it'll be over pretty soon, just try your best to overcome it and happy moments will arrive pretty soon.  Never give up, just need to overcome and let it go and await for a better day.

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough." Albert Einstein